Exodus 15:22-27
Ex 15:22 Then Moses led Israel from the Red Sea, and they went out into the wilderness of Shur; and they went three days in the wilderness and found no water.
Ex 15:23 When they came to Marah, they could not drink the waters of Marah, for they were bitter; therefore it was named Marah.
Ex 15:24 So the people grumbled at Moses, saying, “What shall we drink?”
Ex 15:25 Then he cried out to the Lord, and the Lord showed him a tree; and he threw it into the waters, and the waters became sweet.
There He made for them a statute and regulation, and there He tested them.
Ex 15:26 And He said, “If you will give earnest heed to the voice of the Lord your God, and do what is right in His sight, and give ear to His commandments, and keep all His statutes, I will put none of the diseases on you which I have put on the Egyptians; for I, the Lord, am your healer.”
Ex 15:27 Then they came to Elim where there were twelve springs of water and seventy date palms, and they camped there beside the waters.
Jehovah rapha. Is there a more appealing name for God in all of Scripture? Our healer.
It's interesting to read this verse in context. IF you listen to the LORD, IF you do what is right in HIS sight (the only relevant standard), pay attention to His commandments (the Word) and keep His laws...THEN...God will put none of the diseases on you. The bitter waters of the world can be sweet to us when we follow God's leading and do things His way. Or perhaps He'll move us to a safer Elim - and cause us to leave the world's waters. It's His call.
We just like the healer part, don't we? We want to shirk the responsibility for the rest. We want to be able to live however we want, do whatever we please and then run to God to fix the mess.
Let me be clear: physical illness is NOT all due to sin. In John 9:1-3 Jesus explains that a man's blindness is not due to sin. Jesus tells His listeners in John 11:4 that Lazarus' illness "is not to end in death, but for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified by it.” We live in a fallen world, and with each generation our flesh is farther from Eden, and more cursed with sin... illness happens. That's not my point...
The teaching in Exodus 15 shows a direct correlation between our actions and God's.
Some sexually transmitted diseases are quite obvious results of rampant sin. And yet it's easier to run to the doctor for the Rx than to fall before Jehovah rapha and change our behaviors.
Jehovah rapha's blessing is very real to me, a deterrent to sin in my life in a healthy way. My mother struggled with mental illness and God has used that as a safeguard in my life. When I start to feel oppressed, I do run to my Jehovah rapha, and ask Him to cleanse me again., to heal me. I lean in. My mother's struggle - I can learn from it - a blessing in disguise. Diabetes is a blessing in disguise in a similar way: I eat differently than I would otherwise because I fear the illness and its complications.
Am I guaranteed that if I follow Christ I will not have physical diseases like diabetes, or mental diseases - physiological malfunctions in the brain? No. But I can do everything in my power to eat properly, exercise and rest to avoid diabetic complications. And I can do the same, and more, to safeguard against compromising my mental wholeness.
Action and consequence. Simple, really. And yet we want to take a pill, have a surgery, figure out a way to not have to exercise self discipline and yet be healthy. We want the easy way out, and we want to be in control.
I don't think it works that way.
11.17.2008
11.16.2008
Grace
Yesterday I read a book. Cover to cover. Start to finish. Grace by Richard Paul Evans. I love a light read now and then, and well...I must admit a fondness for the title.
Sweet story. A look inside the adolescent male mind as the main character, Eric, experiences a relationship with a young female for the first time. I won't tell you the story line, but will tell you that the style is simple - an easy holiday read. But the plot? Nothing simple, nothing easy. It tore my heart out.
Do I recommend the book? Yes, but with the caveat that it becomes a heart rending read about a very difficult topic. In my opinion, it is difficult to marry a light holiday read with a real life issue of this magnitude. It sort of left me stunned...not knowing what had hit, and then it was over. Although it is fiction, the author is doing something about the issue in real time and at his very real expense...a noble and worthy effort.
My jury is out. Has anyone else read it?
Sweet story. A look inside the adolescent male mind as the main character, Eric, experiences a relationship with a young female for the first time. I won't tell you the story line, but will tell you that the style is simple - an easy holiday read. But the plot? Nothing simple, nothing easy. It tore my heart out.
Do I recommend the book? Yes, but with the caveat that it becomes a heart rending read about a very difficult topic. In my opinion, it is difficult to marry a light holiday read with a real life issue of this magnitude. It sort of left me stunned...not knowing what had hit, and then it was over. Although it is fiction, the author is doing something about the issue in real time and at his very real expense...a noble and worthy effort.
My jury is out. Has anyone else read it?
11.13.2008
The beginning of a dream fulfilled
I am so excited I can hardly stand it. I am going to begin the courses for my Master's Degree!
For decades I have known that I wanted to get formal Bible School training, but the time and the finances were never right. Recently I went to Elmbrook Church's Christian Study Center website and began to poke around. Today I talked to Dave Seemuth, and it appears that this degree is a perfect fit. I am going to register to get a Master of Arts in Christian Studies, and begin in January with the New Testament Survey class. Honestly, I am SO EXCITED that I want it to start tomorrow.
I'll take a break from teaching for this first semester, to pace myself and to have time to study for this four credit class. The fully accredited degree will be through Trinity Divinity School in Deerfield, IL, but I can take every class at Elmbrook church which is 5 minutes from my work. 42 credits total.
Issues:
Time: I study a lot now. I think it may be a wash.
Money: God has graciously provided through a raise at work. While there are a million other uses for money, this is a good one. Each credit at Elmbrook is $265, while the same class at the seminary is over $600 per credit hour. Such a blessing to have the resource of that church right here.
Home: My husband is all for it, as he knows that study is what fuels me.
Laptop: My work ordered me a brand new lap top today (mine is slow and dying a very colorful death...the screen is swirly pink much of the time...) and it will be my personal as well as my work laptop. It is FAST FAST FAST.
Logos Bible Software: All paid for (did the six months free financing) and I have learned how to really use some of it's features...this will be a big time saver as well as a space saver.
I am feeling total peace about signing up. And SO excited. We went to Elmbrook tonight to look at the text books in the book store, but I can order them at a substantial discount through Amazon.
Woo hoo. I just can't wait!
For decades I have known that I wanted to get formal Bible School training, but the time and the finances were never right. Recently I went to Elmbrook Church's Christian Study Center website and began to poke around. Today I talked to Dave Seemuth, and it appears that this degree is a perfect fit. I am going to register to get a Master of Arts in Christian Studies, and begin in January with the New Testament Survey class. Honestly, I am SO EXCITED that I want it to start tomorrow.
I'll take a break from teaching for this first semester, to pace myself and to have time to study for this four credit class. The fully accredited degree will be through Trinity Divinity School in Deerfield, IL, but I can take every class at Elmbrook church which is 5 minutes from my work. 42 credits total.
Issues:
Time: I study a lot now. I think it may be a wash.
Money: God has graciously provided through a raise at work. While there are a million other uses for money, this is a good one. Each credit at Elmbrook is $265, while the same class at the seminary is over $600 per credit hour. Such a blessing to have the resource of that church right here.
Home: My husband is all for it, as he knows that study is what fuels me.
Laptop: My work ordered me a brand new lap top today (mine is slow and dying a very colorful death...the screen is swirly pink much of the time...) and it will be my personal as well as my work laptop. It is FAST FAST FAST.
Logos Bible Software: All paid for (did the six months free financing) and I have learned how to really use some of it's features...this will be a big time saver as well as a space saver.
I am feeling total peace about signing up. And SO excited. We went to Elmbrook tonight to look at the text books in the book store, but I can order them at a substantial discount through Amazon.
Woo hoo. I just can't wait!
11.12.2008
King David
I'm not doing so well on blogging about the Advent study. At the moment I'm juggling two studies: Advent and the Names of God, and while I'm LOVING it and almost keeping up, the time to blog has been usurped. But here I am for a quickie before bed.
Today I was reading about David, the shepherd boy, the slayer of Goliath, the adulterer and murderer, and the man after God's own heart. What a character! One of the assigned verses was this one:
1 Ch 28:9 “As for you, my son Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a whole heart and a willing mind; for the Lord searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will let you find Him; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
How blessed for David to be able to tell his son to "know the God of your father." We can't fool our kids! I want our children to know, without a doubt, Who is the God of their mother. (and father) And not only who He is, but I too want them to know Him. That is the most important legacy there is.
Whole heart and willing mind. Willing mind. Are we willing to do what He tells us?
For the Lord searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. This phrase gives me great comfort as well as reason to pause. The comfort is that unlike people, God always understands me and my intentions. When I'm trying, successfully or not, to do His will or carry out His best plan, He knows it. When I totally blow something, He knows that that was not my intention, and He understands my original intent. That is comforting. HOWEVER, I can't fool Him. I can fool a lot of people, but I can't fool God with any false religiosity...He searches my heart and knows my intent. Give it up, Grace.
If you seek Him, He will let you find Him. Wonderful comfort. Warm fuzzies.
If you forsake Him He will reject you forever. No sugar coating here.
Life is all about choices. The Bible is all about choices. Choose God and choose the path of blessing. Choose other than God and choose the path of curses. It's simple.
Simple though the choices be, I find it reassuring that God so used David in spite of himself. Gives us all hope, doesn't it?
Today I was reading about David, the shepherd boy, the slayer of Goliath, the adulterer and murderer, and the man after God's own heart. What a character! One of the assigned verses was this one:
1 Ch 28:9 “As for you, my son Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a whole heart and a willing mind; for the Lord searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will let you find Him; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
How blessed for David to be able to tell his son to "know the God of your father." We can't fool our kids! I want our children to know, without a doubt, Who is the God of their mother. (and father) And not only who He is, but I too want them to know Him. That is the most important legacy there is.
Whole heart and willing mind. Willing mind. Are we willing to do what He tells us?
For the Lord searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. This phrase gives me great comfort as well as reason to pause. The comfort is that unlike people, God always understands me and my intentions. When I'm trying, successfully or not, to do His will or carry out His best plan, He knows it. When I totally blow something, He knows that that was not my intention, and He understands my original intent. That is comforting. HOWEVER, I can't fool Him. I can fool a lot of people, but I can't fool God with any false religiosity...He searches my heart and knows my intent. Give it up, Grace.
If you seek Him, He will let you find Him. Wonderful comfort. Warm fuzzies.
If you forsake Him He will reject you forever. No sugar coating here.
Life is all about choices. The Bible is all about choices. Choose God and choose the path of blessing. Choose other than God and choose the path of curses. It's simple.
Simple though the choices be, I find it reassuring that God so used David in spite of himself. Gives us all hope, doesn't it?
11.04.2008
Purse Addiction
A friend sent me this card and it cracks me up.
Um...have I mentioned a penchant for classy bags?
Um...have I mentioned a penchant for classy bags?
11.03.2008
Savoring Sunday
Yes, Sunday should have been blogged BEFORE Monday... sorry.
After church I was blue. Mainly tired, but blue. The sun was bright, so I decided to just snug in a sun puddle and read and nap the afternoon away. It's been a rough week, so that seemed a good plan.
I brought the "Queen Chair" in to our bedroom to the wall of south facing windows that overlook a garden path area and the woods beyond (an amazing view to which to awaken) . It's a slingback folding chair that I used to take camping; it reclines at just the right angle, has a perfect pillow...it fits me just right. Somewhere along the way my buddies named it the Queen chair as they'd see me relaxing in style at the campfire. Ha.
So as I sat basking in the sun and pretending to read, I saw a few birds swooping about. Since I have not baked more seed for the feeders, I thought I should at least clean out the bird bath. I went out and scrubbed it, hosed it and filled it. Having spent a good chunk of Saturday pulling out annuals and putting away garden decor, the bird bath was all that called me on Sunday. Back to the queen chair.
What happened next can only be described as a God given pocket of joy. Over a dozen birds arrived. A couple robins, a couple woodpeckers, one ruby red cardinal, and a mixture of sparrows: some brown, some with reddish heads and chests, and some with blue. The bird world must be thirsty because my little bird bath was THE place to be. For a good 40 minutes I rested while being mesmerized by the shenanigans of my feathered friends. The sparrows had the most fun: they hopped right in, fluffing their feathers and taking full baths. In 5 years of owning this birdbath (my mother loved it so...I had to keep it when I cleaned out her home) I have occasionally seen a bird take a sip. Yesterday it was a veritable bird spa.
The whole experience energized me, and I ended up washing the bedroom windows inside and out, and also the master bath window. I hung three little beaded snowflakes in the bathroom window where they will catch the light all winter. Tiny things, really, but part of my refreshment. The tiny little details in a room bring me such pleasure. Today, Monday, I've literally been "lifted" by seeing those sparkling clean windows with tiny beaded ornaments. Details. Pockets of Joy.
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Thank you Father for lifting my spirits. Thank you for health, for relative wealth, for a home, for the gift of time. I am so blessed. Even on a bluish day.
After church I was blue. Mainly tired, but blue. The sun was bright, so I decided to just snug in a sun puddle and read and nap the afternoon away. It's been a rough week, so that seemed a good plan.
I brought the "Queen Chair" in to our bedroom to the wall of south facing windows that overlook a garden path area and the woods beyond (an amazing view to which to awaken) . It's a slingback folding chair that I used to take camping; it reclines at just the right angle, has a perfect pillow...it fits me just right. Somewhere along the way my buddies named it the Queen chair as they'd see me relaxing in style at the campfire. Ha.
So as I sat basking in the sun and pretending to read, I saw a few birds swooping about. Since I have not baked more seed for the feeders, I thought I should at least clean out the bird bath. I went out and scrubbed it, hosed it and filled it. Having spent a good chunk of Saturday pulling out annuals and putting away garden decor, the bird bath was all that called me on Sunday. Back to the queen chair.
What happened next can only be described as a God given pocket of joy. Over a dozen birds arrived. A couple robins, a couple woodpeckers, one ruby red cardinal, and a mixture of sparrows: some brown, some with reddish heads and chests, and some with blue. The bird world must be thirsty because my little bird bath was THE place to be. For a good 40 minutes I rested while being mesmerized by the shenanigans of my feathered friends. The sparrows had the most fun: they hopped right in, fluffing their feathers and taking full baths. In 5 years of owning this birdbath (my mother loved it so...I had to keep it when I cleaned out her home) I have occasionally seen a bird take a sip. Yesterday it was a veritable bird spa.
The whole experience energized me, and I ended up washing the bedroom windows inside and out, and also the master bath window. I hung three little beaded snowflakes in the bathroom window where they will catch the light all winter. Tiny things, really, but part of my refreshment. The tiny little details in a room bring me such pleasure. Today, Monday, I've literally been "lifted" by seeing those sparkling clean windows with tiny beaded ornaments. Details. Pockets of Joy..JPG)
Thank you Father for lifting my spirits. Thank you for health, for relative wealth, for a home, for the gift of time. I am so blessed. Even on a bluish day.
Marvelous Monday
Today is delicious.
Perhaps because I’ve had fewer days off recently, I am increasingly appreciative when I have a whole day to putter.
It began slow. As I contemplated getting out of bed, I wondered if I’d get anything done at all today. I realize that the stress of last week is weighing on me a bit, so I took it slow – because I could. I gave myself a break. A cup of Nescafe began to wake me as I threw in a load of wash. I try to work on my Bible studies first thing, so I set up at the dining room table.
And that is when the magic began. I would read and write a bit, and then do a chore or two. When I needed to sit, I did…more studying and pondering the amazing names of God. This is now my preferred pace rather than a list: whatever gets done gets done. And wow…the day just stretched on and on. That is the definition of a delicious day: the hours stretch out as I putter.
It is SO warm out, (72!) so washing windows became a priority. The living room, kitchen and half bath are done, inside and out. I moved a mulch pile and redug the earth to balance the bird bath…little garden putters that I see out the bedroom window. The winter is long, and I will appreciate having taken the time to add beauty to the gardens. The wash is done and even put away. Meals are sort of planned, papers are recycled, items picked up and put away…all at a snail’s pace while sipping coffee and studying for 20 minute breaks in between. Oh, there's plenty left to do - but it's been a good days work.
Days like today need to be savored and recorded. The blessings of a warm fall day, a lovely home (with a zillion windows) and time in silence to think and ponder. No music, no tv, no phone…just me and God and His word and our home. Perfection.
Perhaps because I’ve had fewer days off recently, I am increasingly appreciative when I have a whole day to putter.
It began slow. As I contemplated getting out of bed, I wondered if I’d get anything done at all today. I realize that the stress of last week is weighing on me a bit, so I took it slow – because I could. I gave myself a break. A cup of Nescafe began to wake me as I threw in a load of wash. I try to work on my Bible studies first thing, so I set up at the dining room table.
And that is when the magic began. I would read and write a bit, and then do a chore or two. When I needed to sit, I did…more studying and pondering the amazing names of God. This is now my preferred pace rather than a list: whatever gets done gets done. And wow…the day just stretched on and on. That is the definition of a delicious day: the hours stretch out as I putter.
It is SO warm out, (72!) so washing windows became a priority. The living room, kitchen and half bath are done, inside and out. I moved a mulch pile and redug the earth to balance the bird bath…little garden putters that I see out the bedroom window. The winter is long, and I will appreciate having taken the time to add beauty to the gardens. The wash is done and even put away. Meals are sort of planned, papers are recycled, items picked up and put away…all at a snail’s pace while sipping coffee and studying for 20 minute breaks in between. Oh, there's plenty left to do - but it's been a good days work.
Days like today need to be savored and recorded. The blessings of a warm fall day, a lovely home (with a zillion windows) and time in silence to think and ponder. No music, no tv, no phone…just me and God and His word and our home. Perfection.
11.02.2008
Advent
Our SAMBS group (Saturday AM Bible Study) (Sassy lambs) began our new study, Preparing My Heart for Advent yesterday, for the second consecutive year. While it doesn't seem possible that we should be preparing for Advent, it is so very lovely to begin the journey in the relatively stress free month of November.
My plan is to share some of the Advent journey via blog.
Day Two today. The assignment is to read Luke 1 through 2:40, and write questions. Who, what, why, how, where. The purpose? To slow down and study. Savor. Savor His word and His company.
They were both righteous in the sight of God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and requirements of the Lord. But they had no child, because Elizbeth was barren, and they were both advanced in years. Luke 1:6-7
Righteousness does not guarantee perfect circumstance. Righteousness does not preclude longing. Longing does not preclude living within God's will.
Sometimes the wait is long, even when the longing is God given. They were both advanced in years.
Tears fill my eyes as I highlight the angel's message:
Do not be afraid...your petition has been heard...You will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice... Luke 1:13-14.
My heart is full from just these few verses. Live righteously in spite of the longings. Keep praying. Live expectantly. Keep hope. God hears.
Amen!
My plan is to share some of the Advent journey via blog.
Day Two today. The assignment is to read Luke 1 through 2:40, and write questions. Who, what, why, how, where. The purpose? To slow down and study. Savor. Savor His word and His company.
They were both righteous in the sight of God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and requirements of the Lord. But they had no child, because Elizbeth was barren, and they were both advanced in years. Luke 1:6-7
Righteousness does not guarantee perfect circumstance. Righteousness does not preclude longing. Longing does not preclude living within God's will.
Sometimes the wait is long, even when the longing is God given. They were both advanced in years.
Tears fill my eyes as I highlight the angel's message:
Do not be afraid...your petition has been heard...You will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice... Luke 1:13-14.
My heart is full from just these few verses. Live righteously in spite of the longings. Keep praying. Live expectantly. Keep hope. God hears.
Amen!
Starbucks
Words and Coffee...a winning combination.
Here are some wall murals I've found at Starbucks:
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Here are some wall murals I've found at Starbucks:
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11.01.2008
Signs of the Times
I do love words, so I stop and take pictures of great signs. Enjoy.
At a local hospital:
At a restaurant in Lacrosse:
In Kenosha:
At a shop in Genessee:
At a local hospital:
At a restaurant in Lacrosse:
In Kenosha:
At a shop in Genessee:
Mod Podge
Mixed media art intrigues me. That's about as far as it has gotten...the intrigue. Actually, I have made a few cards this fall, using some ribbon, some stickers, sewing a few seed beads on... they turned out well, and I enjoyed the minorly artistic endeavor.
Recently Emily, our college sophomore, sent me this card, proudly sharing that it is made of almost all recycled materials. I'm impressed. The card itself is made from a grocery bag, and the leaves on the tree are individually cut from colorful magazine ads...she herself called it a major bit of "study procrastination." Works of art do take time you know!
The glitter is held in place by...you guessed it...Mod Podge.
I remember Mod Podge from junior high. My friend Karla and I would decoupage pictures onto small wooden plaques. Do you remember that fad? Who knew that Mod Podge still existed?
Today I bought two jars - one plain matte and one in hologram gold glitter. (we didn't have that in junior high!!) Tonight, while watching an old movie, I cut up a magazine to create two cards: photo collages of autumn flowers, pumpkins, and gourds, all compliments of Better Homes & Gardens. Both are glittered Mod Podge style, and I'm feeling quite accomplished...
At Borders Bookstore earlier I was perusing magazines on mixed media art. It's simply amazing what people think to do. One article detailed the process one artist goes through starting with a photocopy of an old family photo. She adds layers of paints, pencil, fabrics, tulle, blush, crayon, feathers, whatever...until there is a work of collage art rather than the photo. Such creativity. I do, however, wonder who might buy this type of art. With the time involved I can certainly understand the phrase, "starving artist." I've written before about "The Artful Blogger" magazine which touts some fabulous pages from artist's blogs. A whole blog world is out there, an online gallery. Is mixed media art relatively new? Crazy quilts preceded it - were there other forms of mixed media?
Creativity is good for my spirits, and I hope that the card recipients feel special for having received a one of a kind message from me. Recycled contents. That's good too. Rather than buy alphabet stickers I can cut andpaste podge. The possibilities are endless!
Recently Emily, our college sophomore, sent me this card, proudly sharing that it is made of almost all recycled materials. I'm impressed. The card itself is made from a grocery bag, and the leaves on the tree are individually cut from colorful magazine ads...she herself called it a major bit of "study procrastination." Works of art do take time you know!
The glitter is held in place by...you guessed it...Mod Podge.
I remember Mod Podge from junior high. My friend Karla and I would decoupage pictures onto small wooden plaques. Do you remember that fad? Who knew that Mod Podge still existed?
Today I bought two jars - one plain matte and one in hologram gold glitter. (we didn't have that in junior high!!) Tonight, while watching an old movie, I cut up a magazine to create two cards: photo collages of autumn flowers, pumpkins, and gourds, all compliments of Better Homes & Gardens. Both are glittered Mod Podge style, and I'm feeling quite accomplished...
At Borders Bookstore earlier I was perusing magazines on mixed media art. It's simply amazing what people think to do. One article detailed the process one artist goes through starting with a photocopy of an old family photo. She adds layers of paints, pencil, fabrics, tulle, blush, crayon, feathers, whatever...until there is a work of collage art rather than the photo. Such creativity. I do, however, wonder who might buy this type of art. With the time involved I can certainly understand the phrase, "starving artist." I've written before about "The Artful Blogger" magazine which touts some fabulous pages from artist's blogs. A whole blog world is out there, an online gallery. Is mixed media art relatively new? Crazy quilts preceded it - were there other forms of mixed media?
Creativity is good for my spirits, and I hope that the card recipients feel special for having received a one of a kind message from me. Recycled contents. That's good too. Rather than buy alphabet stickers I can cut and
10.30.2008
Tinkerbell
Our 16 year old was one of the birthday girls at a shared "Sweet 16" party tonight. The party was held at her friend's house, so we supplied the cake and the pizza. Since the theme was Disney Characters, we chose a cake full of Disney Princesses.
Our Anna dressed as Tinkerbell. Imagine my surprise when Anna gave me my list this morning. She asked me to pick up: 1. Cake ( preordered) 2. Pantyhose 3. Wings (!!!) and 4. a gift card for her friend.
Happily, my local Walgreens stocks wings this time of year. Who knew?
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Our Anna dressed as Tinkerbell. Imagine my surprise when Anna gave me my list this morning. She asked me to pick up: 1. Cake ( preordered) 2. Pantyhose 3. Wings (!!!) and 4. a gift card for her friend.
Happily, my local Walgreens stocks wings this time of year. Who knew?
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Good News
The CT yesterday showed an "atypical hemangioma" in my liver. In English, that is a clump of blood vessels. I will need to go back in 6 months for another scan to see if it is "stable," but otherwise there is nothing to worry about.
Thank you Lord.
Thank you Lord.
10.29.2008
Annie Freeman's Fabulous Traveling Funeral
What a gift to have a fabulous read on such a stressful day. As I awaited my CT (1.5 hours of wait) and then later at the hospital while my father had surgery (he is recovering well) I was thoroughly engrossed in this wonderful novel by Kris Radish.
The story line is that an extraordinary woman dies and four of her closest friends are thrown together to spread her ashes far and wide on a trip that is completely preplanned by the deceased.
I have two notecards of quotes I loved...I always read with a pencil in hand, but since this book is from the library I wrote on notecards rather than in the margins!
A quote that seemed so appropriate for today is on page 148: "Annie's death on top of what happened with your mom, that's a lot.""What's a lot though?""Whatever you can or can't handle I suppose....Everyone has a different level of 'what's a lot.'"
Today was a lot: a lot of emotionally charged activity. But God got me through it. So many friends texted and emailed to say they were praying for me, and that's what got me through.
That and an amazing read.
The story line is that an extraordinary woman dies and four of her closest friends are thrown together to spread her ashes far and wide on a trip that is completely preplanned by the deceased.
I have two notecards of quotes I loved...I always read with a pencil in hand, but since this book is from the library I wrote on notecards rather than in the margins!
A quote that seemed so appropriate for today is on page 148: "Annie's death on top of what happened with your mom, that's a lot.""What's a lot though?""Whatever you can or can't handle I suppose....Everyone has a different level of 'what's a lot.'"
Today was a lot: a lot of emotionally charged activity. But God got me through it. So many friends texted and emailed to say they were praying for me, and that's what got me through.
That and an amazing read.
CT Scan
Today I had an abdominal CT scan. I have no results yet.
This is what it looks like
This is what it looks like
First, fully gowned, they had me lay on the bed with pillows under my head and a wedge under my knees. It was very comfortable, and I was amazingly relaxed. (Thank you for the prayers!)Next they drew blood to check my kidney creatnine level. Thankfully it was well within normal range, so they could add the necessary "contrast" solution. Evidently the contrast is quite hard on the kidneys as they flush it from the system. In the same needle poke they inserted a small tube to use as an IV for the "contrast." Since I have terribly small veins, it took two pokes for the IV, but that is pretty good for me! (Needless to say I dread getting blood work...)
I layed on the bed, and eventually was asked to put my hands over my head. The bed moved back and forth, taking me in and out of the tube. A computerized voice told me when to breathe and when to hold my breath. Amazing.
One set of scans was taken without contrast. That took maybe 3 minutes total. The tech came and added the contrast through the IV in my arm, telling me I would feel warmth in my throat, and then throughout my abdomen. And wow - she was right on. I had no sooner said my throat felt warm than my groin was hot and everything else in between. The next set of scans was quickly taken, and minutes later I was sitting up and feeling normal. The flush of heat was over as fast as it came on.
And that was that. They are looking at the mass they found in my liver which was measured at 7 cm by 5cm by 3 cm. That's BIG! I've googled "liver mass" and read all kinds of options...I should know the results of my scan by tomorrow. Hopefully is it a hemangioma - a cluster of blood vessels. I'm pretty sure that would require no further action.
I do not know what the future holds, but I know Him who holds my future! I'm exhausted, but calm and ready for a good night's sleep.
10.27.2008
The Silver Linings
I stayed in Wausau, WI last night, having driven up at 4 pm with my boss and a favorite coworker. Had a fancy schmancy meal, and was back in my hotel room by 10 pm to drift off to sleep in an amazing bed. The toiletries were Aveda, and the coffee bags for the four cup pot were Starbucks: those are both VERY good signs in a hotel.
At the restaurant I had to order carefully. Silver lining: I'm going to lose weight and feel better. Silver lining...I must remember that silver lining.
Why? Well, about 1.5 weeks ago I began to have some pretty serious stomach pain. Right under my rib cage on the left side. Four evenings in a row. The only relief was laying down. Sometimes the pain shot through to my back like a sword going right through me.
Off to the doctor I went. Blood work. Extensive ultrasounds.
My pancreas enzymes are slightly elevated. Although my pancreas and gallbladder look ok now, my symptoms most resemble pancreatitis. I've been told this is common in 40-something women. Perhaps I threw a gallstone. Don't know. But for now, no alcohol and no fatty food. Pancreatitis is nothing to play with, and my system needs to rest.
Hmmmm. Diabetes keeps me low carb. Now I'm low fat too. And no alcohol. Not even cough syrup. Yipes.
And so, a bit of the fun was stolen from the fancy restaurant as my choices were awfully limited. I chose hot mint decaf tea, and a pasta with chicken, broccoli and broiled tomatoes. Most of the dinner left my system before bed(SIGH) , and the tea woke me a few times as well. (I drank too much because I was feeling sorry for myself as my dinner companions had drinks and wine ...)
However, and this IS a silver lining, I felt good this morning. Less bloated. Cleaner. Clearer. Six to eight weeks of this will likely make a difference!
Another silver lining: they found an abnormality in my liver. Why would that be good? Well, if it's something about which to concern myself, it's amazing that they found it now, as it likely has nothing to do with my pain -- it just showed up by accident in the ultrasounds. Now there is a CT scheduled this week. The mass is likely a hemangioma - a benign clump of blood vessels. But in order to be sure they need the CAT scan.
I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself, but trying to remember the silver linings. And I am taking more couch time than usual. Right now I'm nestled with a stack of books and a quilt...a bit of pain, but mostly just feeling the need to be still and to rest my body.
I left my current read in my boss' car. Sigh. I was wrapped in a blanket in his back seat all the way home, reading Annie Freeman's Fabulous Traveling Funeral by Kris Radish. I am LOVING it - a story about the deep friendship of women.
The silver lining of leaving it behind? I blogged instead of reading the evening away...
At the restaurant I had to order carefully. Silver lining: I'm going to lose weight and feel better. Silver lining...I must remember that silver lining.
Why? Well, about 1.5 weeks ago I began to have some pretty serious stomach pain. Right under my rib cage on the left side. Four evenings in a row. The only relief was laying down. Sometimes the pain shot through to my back like a sword going right through me.
Off to the doctor I went. Blood work. Extensive ultrasounds.
My pancreas enzymes are slightly elevated. Although my pancreas and gallbladder look ok now, my symptoms most resemble pancreatitis. I've been told this is common in 40-something women. Perhaps I threw a gallstone. Don't know. But for now, no alcohol and no fatty food. Pancreatitis is nothing to play with, and my system needs to rest.
Hmmmm. Diabetes keeps me low carb. Now I'm low fat too. And no alcohol. Not even cough syrup. Yipes.
And so, a bit of the fun was stolen from the fancy restaurant as my choices were awfully limited. I chose hot mint decaf tea, and a pasta with chicken, broccoli and broiled tomatoes. Most of the dinner left my system before bed(SIGH) , and the tea woke me a few times as well. (I drank too much because I was feeling sorry for myself as my dinner companions had drinks and wine ...)
However, and this IS a silver lining, I felt good this morning. Less bloated. Cleaner. Clearer. Six to eight weeks of this will likely make a difference!
Another silver lining: they found an abnormality in my liver. Why would that be good? Well, if it's something about which to concern myself, it's amazing that they found it now, as it likely has nothing to do with my pain -- it just showed up by accident in the ultrasounds. Now there is a CT scheduled this week. The mass is likely a hemangioma - a benign clump of blood vessels. But in order to be sure they need the CAT scan.
I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself, but trying to remember the silver linings. And I am taking more couch time than usual. Right now I'm nestled with a stack of books and a quilt...a bit of pain, but mostly just feeling the need to be still and to rest my body.
I left my current read in my boss' car. Sigh. I was wrapped in a blanket in his back seat all the way home, reading Annie Freeman's Fabulous Traveling Funeral by Kris Radish. I am LOVING it - a story about the deep friendship of women.
The silver lining of leaving it behind? I blogged instead of reading the evening away...
10.22.2008
Is Abortion an Important Issue?
I've heard the argument that abortion should not be the most important issue affecting a person's vote.
I just found this link to the candidate's stances, and after watching it, I find it hard to deny that Barack Obama finds it to be an important issue. Note the "Planned Parenthood" banners. Note his own words on his priority in the first day of office.
This is sobering.
This is not just an artificial issue drummed up by conservatives. This is obviously an important issue to both sides.
Watch this. Listen to the candidates' own words. Shut your eyes to the photos if you think they are too religious...just listen to the candidates' own words.
I just found this link to the candidate's stances, and after watching it, I find it hard to deny that Barack Obama finds it to be an important issue. Note the "Planned Parenthood" banners. Note his own words on his priority in the first day of office.
This is sobering.
This is not just an artificial issue drummed up by conservatives. This is obviously an important issue to both sides.
Watch this. Listen to the candidates' own words. Shut your eyes to the photos if you think they are too religious...just listen to the candidates' own words.
Trust
Our Thursday night study is studying Lord I Want to Know You by Kay Arthur. In Day 11's homework I found reference to this verse:
Psalm 9:10
And those who know Thy name will put their trust in Thee; For Thou, O LORD, hast not forsaken those who seek Thee.
What perfect encouragement to continue to seek to know Him more - to know Him by name. The word "trust" in the Hebrew is Strong's number 982: Batach. The Lexical Aid includes: "...to attach oneself, to trust, to confide in, feel safe, be confident, secure, to be careless; ...associated with firmness or solidity...The word expresses the sense of well being which results from knowing that the rug won't be pulled out from under you....Confident expectation...We can truly relax when we know WHO is in control."
Trust. I will admit that I struggle with trust. In the most tender areas of my life I must wonder if God really does have my best in mind...although intellectually I know He does. But I don't feel it. Trust. As I think on it, I struggle with His Sovereign will versus my poor choices. Trust.
In the simple things...like the economy or terrorism...those things don't cause me any lost sleep...I have full confidence that He is in control. And I have none. There's comfort in that!
Trust. I want to trust Him, confide in Him, feel safe with Him... Trust.
Psalm 9:10
And those who know Thy name will put their trust in Thee; For Thou, O LORD, hast not forsaken those who seek Thee.
What perfect encouragement to continue to seek to know Him more - to know Him by name. The word "trust" in the Hebrew is Strong's number 982: Batach. The Lexical Aid includes: "...to attach oneself, to trust, to confide in, feel safe, be confident, secure, to be careless; ...associated with firmness or solidity...The word expresses the sense of well being which results from knowing that the rug won't be pulled out from under you....Confident expectation...We can truly relax when we know WHO is in control."
Trust. I will admit that I struggle with trust. In the most tender areas of my life I must wonder if God really does have my best in mind...although intellectually I know He does. But I don't feel it. Trust. As I think on it, I struggle with His Sovereign will versus my poor choices. Trust.
In the simple things...like the economy or terrorism...those things don't cause me any lost sleep...I have full confidence that He is in control. And I have none. There's comfort in that!
Trust. I want to trust Him, confide in Him, feel safe with Him... Trust.
10.20.2008
The Journey
This photo is of a path near our old home...a path Boomer and I walked hundreds of times. It reminds me of life's journey. While there is plenty of beauty and wonder in the here and now, we have positively no idea of what might be around the corner...
In the photo, for instance, the path leads to a man made lake - a treasure in the suburbs, and a walker's delight.
In the photo, for instance, the path leads to a man made lake - a treasure in the suburbs, and a walker's delight.
The G List - part 1
This week end's list:
-Meeting our 16 year old's first boyfriend. He looks so young and so innocent. (Thank God!)
-Buying cranberries at the grocery store, our 19 year old, Em, asked if they were for the Thanksgiving sauce. Yes was my reply. She lamented that she wished she could stay home and make the sauce with me. It's amazing how sentimental she has become.
-Em walking through the house on Friday evening, studying the details, and then settling into the familiar overstuffed leather couch. "I'm so glad you decorate for the seasons, " she said. (who IS this girl??)
-The new zinnias bravely pushing out petals in late October. They are healthy and happy and five feet tall. Each morning I look out the window to see if they made it through another chilly night. So far so good.
-My October Starbucks drink:
Grande
Nonfat
Pumpkin Spice Latte
2 pumps pumpkin
2 pumps sugar free vanilla
one shot of protein
with whip
Substituting half sugar free flavoring doesn't distract too much from the taste, and halves the grams of sugar. Although it's a mouthful to place my order, the result is worth it. Honestly, all is well with the world during those first few sips.
-Finding the New York Times Sunday edition on our steps for the first time. I ordered just the Sunday paper for 12 weeks at an intro price of $3.60 a week. (It's $5 at Starbucks) And during the 12 weeks I have access to the NYT crossword puzzles online, and the total archive of past puzzles are there to down load and/or print. Sunday afternoons are becoming cherished couch time with that silly NYT crossword. It's SO addicting.
-Singing in the quintet on Sunday. What a gift it is to make such music.
-Sitting in my spot on a rare Monday morning off work. Such simple luxury.
-Playing Scrabble with our 12 year old on Saturday night. We played for an hour and a half, and he did GREAT. I helped him a bit with strategy, and assisted when he was stuck, but overall he kept pace and made some awesome plays all on his own. I know that he has watched me and his 21 year old brother play, and this was a sort of rite of passage. It filled me up as well.
-Cooking five meals today. It feels right to prioritize that, and while I'm not sure I actually *grinned,* I am grinning now when I open my fridge and see them there. It takes the pressure off the week.
-Reading an article on writing memoirs in an Oprah magazine read at the hair salon. The article was so good, and the accompanying pages of memoirs so tempting, that I *borrowed* the magazine to finish it tonight. (August 2008 edition) Yes, I do plan to sneak it back into the salon. (although they'll likely be tossing August soon anyhow, no?)
-Sleeping under the quilt with 40 degree air coming in the window. Autumn. Mmmmmm.
10.08.2008
Simple Sacrifice
To You I shall offer a sacrifice of thanksgiving,
And call upon the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:17
This morning in my quiet moments I read Psalm 116. The word "sacrifice" carries such difficult and unpleasant connotations, but here the sacrifice is thanksgiving combined with calling on the name of the Lord. Is that not a commentary on man? Just thanking God requires sacrifice: the sacrifice of time, of thought, of intention, and of giving up the urge to complain and whine.
I was reminded of another verse in Hebrews:
Through Him then, let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that give thanks to His name. Hebrews 13:15
Again, the sacrifice is so simple: the fruit of lips that give thanks to His name. The author commands it *continually.*
Continually? Is this true of me? Is this true of you?
Let's work on sacrifice today. Let's continually offer up thanks to God rather than offering grumbling to our fellow man. Could we do it for a whole day?
And call upon the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:17
This morning in my quiet moments I read Psalm 116. The word "sacrifice" carries such difficult and unpleasant connotations, but here the sacrifice is thanksgiving combined with calling on the name of the Lord. Is that not a commentary on man? Just thanking God requires sacrifice: the sacrifice of time, of thought, of intention, and of giving up the urge to complain and whine.
I was reminded of another verse in Hebrews:
Through Him then, let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that give thanks to His name. Hebrews 13:15
Again, the sacrifice is so simple: the fruit of lips that give thanks to His name. The author commands it *continually.*
Continually? Is this true of me? Is this true of you?
Let's work on sacrifice today. Let's continually offer up thanks to God rather than offering grumbling to our fellow man. Could we do it for a whole day?
10.04.2008
Sweet Sixteen
Our baby girl, third child of four, is sixteen today. Her oldest brother came home from college to lunch with us, along with my future daughter-in-law his girlfiend. We dined on grilled salmon with home made mashed potatoes and corn, all at the birthday girl's request. And she didn't want a cake...so...I made my late mother's famous brownie recipe. The brownies have a fudge glaze that is quite amazing! Juanita didn't bake a lot, but when she did have to take something to a party, everyone requested her brownies.
Juanita's Brownies
Cream together:
1/2 cup butter
1 cup sugar
and then beat in:
4 eggs
Add:
1- 16 oz can Hershey's syrup
1/2 cup chopped nuts
1 cup flour
Spray a jelly roll pan (flat pan with edges) and pour batter in.
Bake at 325 for 35 minutes
Fudge Glaze:
Mix in saucepan:
1 & 1/3 cup sugar
6 Tablespoons butter
6 Tablespoons milk
Bring to a boil and boil one minute.
Take off the heat and mix in
3/4 cup *real* chocolate chips
1/2 teaspoon vanilla
Stir and stir and stir until thickened but pourable. (I sit the saucepan in a frying pan of ice and water after the chips are melted and all is mixed...careful not to get even a drop of water in the glaze)
Pour over the brownies in the pan and smooth quickly with a spatula. Let glaze harden a bit before cutting, though you might want to score the glaze while it's still warm.
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Juanita's Brownies
Cream together:
1/2 cup butter
1 cup sugar
and then beat in:
4 eggs
Add:
1- 16 oz can Hershey's syrup
1/2 cup chopped nuts
1 cup flour
Spray a jelly roll pan (flat pan with edges) and pour batter in.
Bake at 325 for 35 minutes
Fudge Glaze:
Mix in saucepan:
1 & 1/3 cup sugar
6 Tablespoons butter
6 Tablespoons milk
Bring to a boil and boil one minute.
Take off the heat and mix in
3/4 cup *real* chocolate chips
1/2 teaspoon vanilla
Stir and stir and stir until thickened but pourable. (I sit the saucepan in a frying pan of ice and water after the chips are melted and all is mixed...careful not to get even a drop of water in the glaze)
Pour over the brownies in the pan and smooth quickly with a spatula. Let glaze harden a bit before cutting, though you might want to score the glaze while it's still warm.
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10.03.2008
Sue
Everyone should have a Sue in their life. I am so blessed.
Only Sue would think to invite me to celebrate my 45 and a half birthday. On the day. With a sleepover and everything.
And only Sue would scribble welcome on her mirrors for me.
Only Sue would think to invite me to celebrate my 45 and a half birthday. On the day. With a sleepover and everything.
And only Sue would scribble welcome on her mirrors for me.
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And only Sue would think to draw half a balloon and half a birthday cake on her back hallway chalkboard. (which is a closet door painted with chalkboard paint...such a great idea.)
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And only Sue would make a word search with all words that she associates with me. Is that not incredible? She claims she had to really pare down her list in order to get the puzzle on a 11x17 piece of paper. She made me lots of copies.
Some words in the puzzle include: Basket Lover, Bath Soaker, Beach Fan, Bible Studier, Blackberry, (lol) Blessed, Blogger, Book Lover, Celebrates Moments, Decorator, Entertainer, Fresh Brewed Life, Hilarious, Honest, Mother, Organizer, Sanctuary, Searcher, Starbucks, Traditions, Walker, Wife, Word Magician... and more. I'm tearing up looking closely at this list. What an honor to read it.
We had pizza both nights (just because), we compared journal notes, swapped a few recipes, talked about our kids, shopped, drank tea, drank wine, cried a bit, laughed a lot.
I brought Sue a copy of The Grace Of Ordinary Days which I had bought at the senior living conference that week. I will describe that book in blog of its own. As we read pages to each other we sighed and we wept at the beauty of the words. The tears just flowed.
Sue is a gift from God to me. A pocket of joy. I've known her for over 25 years...that's amazing in and of itself. We met in college ,we lost years to busyness along the way, but then we reconnected and haven't lost each other again. We don't see each other as often as we'd like, for we both have incredibly rich and full lives. We don't agree on everything, yet we treasure one another, differences and all.
Thank you Sue! You are a rare gift and I love you!
Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Last week I was in Green Bay again, a week after the famous Favre gift. At this conference, mainly education devoted to the administrators of senior living facilities, they had an American Idol contest. Actually what it was was a demonstration of a sound system being marketed for the senior living environment. It was a glorified karaoke. (Vendors of services and products aimed at the senior population sponsor the whole conference. We were there as designers of senior living communities)
When someone sang Elvis, actual clips of The King were shown afterward, a few moments that truly would enamor the senior population. When a gentleman sang Frank Sinatra, he opted to sing along with Frank rather than solo with just instrumentation. The Chicken Dance was played complete with a video showing the movements, and Lawrence Welk himself showed up in a clip of another golden oldie. It was a cool system and a VERY large projection screen.
When I sang, I sang Judy Garland's Somewhere Over the Rainbow. No movie. No Dorothy. Just me. It was low, and it was s-l-o-w, but it went well, and I won $300 cash in second place. Another amazing gift.
The next day I had my moments of fame when people congratulated me. The best was during a morning session. Behind me sat a group of five nuns, one of whom tapped me on the shoulder. "We all thought you should have won," she said, "We prayed you would."
That cracked me up and still makes me smile. The Sisters liked me. What more do I need?
When someone sang Elvis, actual clips of The King were shown afterward, a few moments that truly would enamor the senior population. When a gentleman sang Frank Sinatra, he opted to sing along with Frank rather than solo with just instrumentation. The Chicken Dance was played complete with a video showing the movements, and Lawrence Welk himself showed up in a clip of another golden oldie. It was a cool system and a VERY large projection screen.
When I sang, I sang Judy Garland's Somewhere Over the Rainbow. No movie. No Dorothy. Just me. It was low, and it was s-l-o-w, but it went well, and I won $300 cash in second place. Another amazing gift.
The next day I had my moments of fame when people congratulated me. The best was during a morning session. Behind me sat a group of five nuns, one of whom tapped me on the shoulder. "We all thought you should have won," she said, "We prayed you would."
That cracked me up and still makes me smile. The Sisters liked me. What more do I need?
Micah
In studying for our Saturday morning Bible study group, I came upon these beautiful verses in Micah 5.
His [Jesus'] goings forth are from long ago,
From the days of eternity.
This One will be our peace.
(verses 2b and 5a)
What beautiful assurance that God is in control.
Have been emailing (futilely) back and forth with my oldest brother tonight. He is so rabidly pro-Obama, and cannot fathom that I would vote Pro-Life. I simply say...I think God would vote pro life. And then he explodes into a million topics and implies that I am naive in not spending hours researching every issue. (did I mention that he is retired?) And he is so angry about it all. I only have one vote. Do I matter that much to him?
I love the Word. I choose to spend those hours in the Truth. The only Truth. I don't have to worry about spin, about polls, about what is truth and what is not. Thy Word is Truth. John 17:17.
And those words in Micah just hit me as so complete, and so peaceful tonight. God has a time table. Verse 2b seems to be already history. Verse 5a is future in context. God's time. His ways are so much higher than ours.
He already is my Peace. No matter who gets elected.
His [Jesus'] goings forth are from long ago,
From the days of eternity.
This One will be our peace.
(verses 2b and 5a)
What beautiful assurance that God is in control.
Have been emailing (futilely) back and forth with my oldest brother tonight. He is so rabidly pro-Obama, and cannot fathom that I would vote Pro-Life. I simply say...I think God would vote pro life. And then he explodes into a million topics and implies that I am naive in not spending hours researching every issue. (did I mention that he is retired?) And he is so angry about it all. I only have one vote. Do I matter that much to him?
I love the Word. I choose to spend those hours in the Truth. The only Truth. I don't have to worry about spin, about polls, about what is truth and what is not. Thy Word is Truth. John 17:17.
And those words in Micah just hit me as so complete, and so peaceful tonight. God has a time table. Verse 2b seems to be already history. Verse 5a is future in context. God's time. His ways are so much higher than ours.
He already is my Peace. No matter who gets elected.
10.01.2008
Shoulda taken a picture...
So much to write. Another whirlwind week...and it's only Wednesday.
On Monday I was at a hospital in Illinois. We went to meet with new clients, and to take measurements of some shell space (built space with no drywall etc...just the *shell* built when the rest of the building was erected). The architectural firm where I work is going to design some medical suites to fill the space. (Many facilities plan in "shell space" when they build new buildings, and suite them out as space is needed)(There's your architectural lesson for today)
A few women were setting up a buffet of sorts as we stepped off the elevator on this nearly empty floor. They were taping some paper onto a gurney of sorts...those rolls of paper that you cover tables with at church dinners...well...that's what they were using. Evidently a staff luncheon was being held in this empty part of the facility. (Two conference rooms are finished, with thousands of feet of empty space behind closed doors) The *table* they were covering was a cross between a folding table and a hospital bed.
As we stepped out of the conference room and into the empty room, my boss leaned in to me and said...that was a morgue cart. Ewww. A morgue table to hold their buffet?
And yes, when we went back to the elevator, the Dominoe's pizza boxes were indeed open on the paper covered...morgue table. EWWWWWW. I guess it's just another flat surface to the nurses gathered there. I really wish I had snapped a photo of that particular moment in time. Sometimes truth is stranger than fiction.
On Monday I was at a hospital in Illinois. We went to meet with new clients, and to take measurements of some shell space (built space with no drywall etc...just the *shell* built when the rest of the building was erected). The architectural firm where I work is going to design some medical suites to fill the space. (Many facilities plan in "shell space" when they build new buildings, and suite them out as space is needed)(There's your architectural lesson for today)
A few women were setting up a buffet of sorts as we stepped off the elevator on this nearly empty floor. They were taping some paper onto a gurney of sorts...those rolls of paper that you cover tables with at church dinners...well...that's what they were using. Evidently a staff luncheon was being held in this empty part of the facility. (Two conference rooms are finished, with thousands of feet of empty space behind closed doors) The *table* they were covering was a cross between a folding table and a hospital bed.
As we stepped out of the conference room and into the empty room, my boss leaned in to me and said...that was a morgue cart. Ewww. A morgue table to hold their buffet?
And yes, when we went back to the elevator, the Dominoe's pizza boxes were indeed open on the paper covered...morgue table. EWWWWWW. I guess it's just another flat surface to the nurses gathered there. I really wish I had snapped a photo of that particular moment in time. Sometimes truth is stranger than fiction.
9.25.2008
Granted to Suffer
Philippians 1:29-30 NASB For to you it has been granted for Christ's sake, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake, experiencing the same conflict which you saw in me, and now hear to be in me.
In my hotel room, on a break from schmoozing (my smile hurts) I am reading Philippians. These verses in Philippians caught me today, especially the word "granted." Looked up in the Greek, it is Strongs # 5483: Charizomai. Part of the definition from the Zodhiates Complete Word Study Dictionary New Testament includes: To show someone a favor, be kind to. To give or bestow a thing willingly; to be permitted or granted something.
And the word "granted" comes from the word "grace."
So, we, as followers of Christ, are permitted, and shown favor by being able to suffer for His sake.
That's tough to swallow, and yet reluctantly I already see the truth in it. It is the suffering that shapes me, molds me, and sifts me. Without suffering, we'd all be insufferable. (hmmm...that's a good play on words, eh?) We value things more when we work for them, sacrifice for them. We prove what is important to us. And so it must be with our faith. We learn to treasure it through the hard times. And we learn what a treasure it is when we can see the outcomes of God pleasing choices.
Suffering for HIS sake is so much different than suffering for my own stupidity...there must be a strict difference noted there. Suffering for HIS sake denotes making the right choice for the right reason but with undesired consequence.
It's granted. It's a gift. It's part of His grace.
And so perhaps my acceptance of the suffering can include a measure of pleasure - pleased that I am indeed called, and that with that call comes the inevitable. It's almost a badge of honor. A proof.
Which reminds me of one of the toughest verses in the Bible: Hebrews 5:8. Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered.
If Christ had to suffer, and Paul had to suffer, then I am in very good company in the suffering which occurs in my life for His sake. Seeing commitments through, removing myself from certain situations, saying tough truth, not participating in "social sin," ...these are examples of choosing for His sake to suffer the loss of passing pleasure, or the loss of relationship. To be set apart in order to glorify His name, a name to which I am associated as a Christian. And while I have not been stoned or shipwrecked, and certainly not bound and crucified, the small choices granted to me are to test my choice to glorify Christ in my actions. Once in a while there is victory over the flesh, and then...I grow. And actually, as I mature in Him, as well as in years, the choices become clearer, and the victories more frequent.
Opportunities for this growth have been granted to me. To prove to myself, perhaps, what my faith is made of.
In my hotel room, on a break from schmoozing (my smile hurts) I am reading Philippians. These verses in Philippians caught me today, especially the word "granted." Looked up in the Greek, it is Strongs # 5483: Charizomai. Part of the definition from the Zodhiates Complete Word Study Dictionary New Testament includes: To show someone a favor, be kind to. To give or bestow a thing willingly; to be permitted or granted something.
And the word "granted" comes from the word "grace."
So, we, as followers of Christ, are permitted, and shown favor by being able to suffer for His sake.
That's tough to swallow, and yet reluctantly I already see the truth in it. It is the suffering that shapes me, molds me, and sifts me. Without suffering, we'd all be insufferable. (hmmm...that's a good play on words, eh?) We value things more when we work for them, sacrifice for them. We prove what is important to us. And so it must be with our faith. We learn to treasure it through the hard times. And we learn what a treasure it is when we can see the outcomes of God pleasing choices.
Suffering for HIS sake is so much different than suffering for my own stupidity...there must be a strict difference noted there. Suffering for HIS sake denotes making the right choice for the right reason but with undesired consequence.
It's granted. It's a gift. It's part of His grace.
And so perhaps my acceptance of the suffering can include a measure of pleasure - pleased that I am indeed called, and that with that call comes the inevitable. It's almost a badge of honor. A proof.
Which reminds me of one of the toughest verses in the Bible: Hebrews 5:8. Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered.
If Christ had to suffer, and Paul had to suffer, then I am in very good company in the suffering which occurs in my life for His sake. Seeing commitments through, removing myself from certain situations, saying tough truth, not participating in "social sin," ...these are examples of choosing for His sake to suffer the loss of passing pleasure, or the loss of relationship. To be set apart in order to glorify His name, a name to which I am associated as a Christian. And while I have not been stoned or shipwrecked, and certainly not bound and crucified, the small choices granted to me are to test my choice to glorify Christ in my actions. Once in a while there is victory over the flesh, and then...I grow. And actually, as I mature in Him, as well as in years, the choices become clearer, and the victories more frequent.
Opportunities for this growth have been granted to me. To prove to myself, perhaps, what my faith is made of.
9.21.2008
Les Fleurs
This photo was shot as the sun was setting in the west. It is the flower garden in front of our living room window - in the back yard. It is glorious...and this photo almost captures it. This photo is not retouched at all. The light was amazing.
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The white clematis is new this year - Autumn Splendor. It is a breath of spring that blooms at the start of autumn. I'm loving it.
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Lots of posts this week end! But now a bit of a break: I'm out of town (yes...more dinner and golf) for three nights this week, and then having a sleep over party at my dear friend Sue's to celebrate my 45 and a half birthday. (we missed my 45th so the belated celebration and the date was her idea)
See you next week!
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The white clematis is new this year - Autumn Splendor. It is a breath of spring that blooms at the start of autumn. I'm loving it.
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Lots of posts this week end! But now a bit of a break: I'm out of town (yes...more dinner and golf) for three nights this week, and then having a sleep over party at my dear friend Sue's to celebrate my 45 and a half birthday. (we missed my 45th so the belated celebration and the date was her idea)
See you next week!
The Evangelical Free Church
My husband and I were members of an E-Free church for 20 years. I was a member in various E-Frees for 34 years. Last year we changed churches, for personnel reasons, not doctrinal reasons, but we still receive their magazine, "EFCA Today." On the way to nine holes of golf today I skimmed the Fall 2008 issue while my husband drove.
A number of things popped out at me.
Page 6. Students live in a culture where there is no room or time to hear, encounter or know God. We won't be able to change the culture, but we can be part of a church/ministry that creates space to encounter God.
I love that phrase: Create space to encounter God. Isn't that so relevant? I am definitely noodling that phrase... We need to purpose to create that space in our jam packed lives.
"My Friend Prudence," is an article on page 8 which contains this thought provoking quote: "Too often Christians assume that those outside the Church reject their message because they are rejecting the truth of the gospel. I believe, however, that often these observers don't like us because we have failed to treat them with genuine Christian love." You can read this article on diversity here.
The side bar on page 30 has me beaming. It is the introduction to a ministry called ReachGlobal Agape Home in Thailand. It's the kind of ministry that I want to support and know more about so that when a liberal starts attacking my social values I can respond..."I support an orphanage in Thailand for HIV infected orphans with my money. And you?" The church is so active, but I am so ignorant of ministries like this!
The coordinator, Ellen Costrava, writes: Things die and things are left behind. Dreams die. Mommies die. Hope dies. But this is not he end of the story. Dreams can come alive again. I can be a mommy. Hope can be restored. God cares about lost things. And He cares about children who have been lost...lost in a political system, lost in the the shuffle, lost to someone's memory. I live to be a finder.
Read more about this ministry here.
The world is such a big place isn't it? It's easy for me to become entangled in my dailies, and to lose sight of the big picture. The ministries of the church are a great way to stay connected...I need to become more sacrificially involved. My time is spent on the local church, but my money can affect the global picture.
A number of things popped out at me.
Page 6. Students live in a culture where there is no room or time to hear, encounter or know God. We won't be able to change the culture, but we can be part of a church/ministry that creates space to encounter God.
I love that phrase: Create space to encounter God. Isn't that so relevant? I am definitely noodling that phrase... We need to purpose to create that space in our jam packed lives.
"My Friend Prudence," is an article on page 8 which contains this thought provoking quote: "Too often Christians assume that those outside the Church reject their message because they are rejecting the truth of the gospel. I believe, however, that often these observers don't like us because we have failed to treat them with genuine Christian love." You can read this article on diversity here.
The side bar on page 30 has me beaming. It is the introduction to a ministry called ReachGlobal Agape Home in Thailand. It's the kind of ministry that I want to support and know more about so that when a liberal starts attacking my social values I can respond..."I support an orphanage in Thailand for HIV infected orphans with my money. And you?" The church is so active, but I am so ignorant of ministries like this!
The coordinator, Ellen Costrava, writes: Things die and things are left behind. Dreams die. Mommies die. Hope dies. But this is not he end of the story. Dreams can come alive again. I can be a mommy. Hope can be restored. God cares about lost things. And He cares about children who have been lost...lost in a political system, lost in the the shuffle, lost to someone's memory. I live to be a finder.
Read more about this ministry here.
The world is such a big place isn't it? It's easy for me to become entangled in my dailies, and to lose sight of the big picture. The ministries of the church are a great way to stay connected...I need to become more sacrificially involved. My time is spent on the local church, but my money can affect the global picture.
Gib's Request
A week ago tonight, Sunday, I was one tired puppy. (come to think of it, I'm slightly exhausted tonight as well...) Returning from two overnights at Camp TimberLee, and an emotionally charged week end retreat, I was ready for a relaxing Monday off. Or so I thought.
Smart me planned dinner at a local pizza place on Sunday night. There were 7 of us including my dad and my brother and his wife. We love Ricardos. Anyhow, silly me at one point asked my dear old dad, "What would you like for your birthday meal tomorrow? I'm off, and will cook whatever you like." Silly silly girl. After thinking for 5 minutes, he perked up and said," I've got it, but it's a lot of work." I said something totally inane like "the sky's the limit," and he answered with, "I'd like a full Thanksgiving dinner."
Gulp.
"Would a turkey breast do?" I asked. "No, I like dark meat." was the no nonsense reply.
A trip to a local upscale grocery ensued, with a search for a fresh turkey in September. Hmmmmm. The butcher showed me a whopping 9 pound fresh turkey breast, so that was the start. I followed him to the pieces and parts department, and we dug and came up with two whopper turkey thighs and two huge fresh drumsticks. I picked up a few other staples, and returned home.
I am the family Thanksgiving dinner preparer, and I've got it down to a science. My sons especially look forward to our annual November feast, and I do go all out with homemade rolls, homemade cranberry relish, 10 pounds of smashed potatoes and a very moist bird stuffed with celery, onion and craisin laden dressing. It is amazing. I cook my turkey, the biggest bird I can find - usually around 25 pounds - in a Reynold's cooking bag, and it is moist and delish.
With a tired chef and one day to plan and cook, I took a few shortcuts. Frozen bread rolls, Ocean Spray cranberry-orange sauce, and rice rather than potatoes. I did make the traditional stuffing, and put it in a glass casserole with the drumsticks laying on top. The breast and thighs went in the bag.
The result was quite excellent. I should have started it an hour sooner -- I was afraid that it would be so overcooked since it was in pieces...but that large dense breast could have used more time. I didn't get enough drippings for the gravy, so I did add some turkey gravy mix to the pan...no one seemed to notice. Jake was a little bummed about the rice in lieu of smashed potatoes... The rolls were great, but not "mine," (my butter rolls are legendary)(at least to my kids. Our 15 year old daughter and 12 year old son once each ate 6 at a dinner where we had guests. I couldn't believe we had run out of rolls...until they fessed up...) The pecan pie out of my freezer (no idea where or when I purchased it...) was good but not a homemade apple...
And so Gib had Thanksgiving in September. I'm not sure he'll make it til November 27, so I sure didn't have the heart to deny him his wishes. My sister-in-law calls me "Amazing Grace," thus I have a reputation to protect...
Life is so full. But would I want it any other way? I'll always remember the incredulous look on my sister-in-law's face when Gib made that request. It is a moment to remember. A memory to cherish.
This photo is of the birthday boy, Gilbert, now 83, with our youngest son, his namesake, Jacob Gilbert.
Smart me planned dinner at a local pizza place on Sunday night. There were 7 of us including my dad and my brother and his wife. We love Ricardos. Anyhow, silly me at one point asked my dear old dad, "What would you like for your birthday meal tomorrow? I'm off, and will cook whatever you like." Silly silly girl. After thinking for 5 minutes, he perked up and said," I've got it, but it's a lot of work." I said something totally inane like "the sky's the limit," and he answered with, "I'd like a full Thanksgiving dinner."
Gulp.
"Would a turkey breast do?" I asked. "No, I like dark meat." was the no nonsense reply.
A trip to a local upscale grocery ensued, with a search for a fresh turkey in September. Hmmmmm. The butcher showed me a whopping 9 pound fresh turkey breast, so that was the start. I followed him to the pieces and parts department, and we dug and came up with two whopper turkey thighs and two huge fresh drumsticks. I picked up a few other staples, and returned home.
I am the family Thanksgiving dinner preparer, and I've got it down to a science. My sons especially look forward to our annual November feast, and I do go all out with homemade rolls, homemade cranberry relish, 10 pounds of smashed potatoes and a very moist bird stuffed with celery, onion and craisin laden dressing. It is amazing. I cook my turkey, the biggest bird I can find - usually around 25 pounds - in a Reynold's cooking bag, and it is moist and delish.
With a tired chef and one day to plan and cook, I took a few shortcuts. Frozen bread rolls, Ocean Spray cranberry-orange sauce, and rice rather than potatoes. I did make the traditional stuffing, and put it in a glass casserole with the drumsticks laying on top. The breast and thighs went in the bag.
The result was quite excellent. I should have started it an hour sooner -- I was afraid that it would be so overcooked since it was in pieces...but that large dense breast could have used more time. I didn't get enough drippings for the gravy, so I did add some turkey gravy mix to the pan...no one seemed to notice. Jake was a little bummed about the rice in lieu of smashed potatoes... The rolls were great, but not "mine," (my butter rolls are legendary)(at least to my kids. Our 15 year old daughter and 12 year old son once each ate 6 at a dinner where we had guests. I couldn't believe we had run out of rolls...until they fessed up...) The pecan pie out of my freezer (no idea where or when I purchased it...) was good but not a homemade apple...
And so Gib had Thanksgiving in September. I'm not sure he'll make it til November 27, so I sure didn't have the heart to deny him his wishes. My sister-in-law calls me "Amazing Grace," thus I have a reputation to protect...
Life is so full. But would I want it any other way? I'll always remember the incredulous look on my sister-in-law's face when Gib made that request. It is a moment to remember. A memory to cherish.
This photo is of the birthday boy, Gilbert, now 83, with our youngest son, his namesake, Jacob Gilbert.
9.20.2008
Thursday's Gift
So...on Wednesday I golfed in a golf outing for hospital executives and sponsors of the state's healthcare association. Our architectural firm designs primarily health care facilities, so we sponsor this event which also includes dinners, exhibitions, training, etc.
I was teamed up with two Directors of Nursing (DON)and one of their guests. The DON assigned to my cart had to decline at the last minute, so she sent her delightful husband. The other DON and her fiance were on our team, but in the other golf cart. I knew right away that he was going to be a tough nut to crack. He is a very big guy, an ex law enforcement agent, apparently a decent golfer, and not outgoingly friendly. This was going to be a challenge. Good thing I like challenges!
My golf game started out slow, and I'm betting he was rolling his eyes thinking...great...stuck with a non golfer. I small talked a bit, and concluded that he might just choose to remain grumpy
I asked him to help me with my chip shots for two reasons: I need help, and also I know that men like to be helpful to we damsels in distress. His help really did assist me...and he started cheering on my better shots. The beer cart arrived, and a round of beer helped to smooth the water as well. And then my driver woke up, and I began to hit 200 yard arrows. We used my drive (it was a best ball format) for five or six holes in a row. He was laughing and amazed, and asked how I golfed after TWO beers.
By the end of the round we were fast friends. Score.
He stopped by my exhibition table later, and told my boss how much he enjoyed golf and that I was REALLY good at engaging conversation. He said he met a lot of people in his line of work, and he could spot the genuine ones a mile away. He also guessed my age, in small talk, guessing 36. Well...that sealed it. He was now best friend material. Anyhow, when he stopped by the booth I gave him a dozen golf balls with our firm logo on them. He was gracious and appreciative and complimentary. And his fiancee was so friendly and chatty, as if a miracle had happened before her eyes.
Well...the next morning I was checking out of the hotel and he appeared. He told me he had a gift for me in the car. We walked out to his car, and he told me they had really enjoyed my company and that because I was such a "good kid" he wanted to give me a gift to reiprocate for the golf balls. And he handed me a bag. And inside was a brand new Brett Favre jersey complete with Brett's autograph. !!! He said he had a collection of Brett autographs from working for many years in the Green Bay area. I was incredulous and told him he HAD to be kidding. But he wasn't. He insisted that I keep it as a souvenir of our golf game. ANd not to tell where I got it, as he can't get autographs for every Tom, Dick and Harry... (so...shhhhhhh...this is our little secret)
I went back to our exhibition booth, and stunnedly relayed the story to my boss. He rolled his eyes, and asked me what kind of magic I did on a golf course. Ha.
And so, the most amazing gift. We'll have it framed and on the wall. Although I generally consider football to be a waste of precious time, I do like Brett. If I like any football player, it has to be Brett...he is an icon around here. (still!)
Pockets of Joy. Who could have ever guessed that THAT picture would be in my 2008 journal??
My sons and husband are all putting dibs on it... I'll give it as a wedding gift to our oldest someday...since then I won't have to decorate our family room around it for quite so many years...
I was teamed up with two Directors of Nursing (DON)and one of their guests. The DON assigned to my cart had to decline at the last minute, so she sent her delightful husband. The other DON and her fiance were on our team, but in the other golf cart. I knew right away that he was going to be a tough nut to crack. He is a very big guy, an ex law enforcement agent, apparently a decent golfer, and not outgoingly friendly. This was going to be a challenge. Good thing I like challenges!
My golf game started out slow, and I'm betting he was rolling his eyes thinking...great...stuck with a non golfer. I small talked a bit, and concluded that he might just choose to remain grumpy
I asked him to help me with my chip shots for two reasons: I need help, and also I know that men like to be helpful to we damsels in distress. His help really did assist me...and he started cheering on my better shots. The beer cart arrived, and a round of beer helped to smooth the water as well. And then my driver woke up, and I began to hit 200 yard arrows. We used my drive (it was a best ball format) for five or six holes in a row. He was laughing and amazed, and asked how I golfed after TWO beers.
By the end of the round we were fast friends. Score.
He stopped by my exhibition table later, and told my boss how much he enjoyed golf and that I was REALLY good at engaging conversation. He said he met a lot of people in his line of work, and he could spot the genuine ones a mile away. He also guessed my age, in small talk, guessing 36. Well...that sealed it. He was now best friend material. Anyhow, when he stopped by the booth I gave him a dozen golf balls with our firm logo on them. He was gracious and appreciative and complimentary. And his fiancee was so friendly and chatty, as if a miracle had happened before her eyes.
Well...the next morning I was checking out of the hotel and he appeared. He told me he had a gift for me in the car. We walked out to his car, and he told me they had really enjoyed my company and that because I was such a "good kid" he wanted to give me a gift to reiprocate for the golf balls. And he handed me a bag. And inside was a brand new Brett Favre jersey complete with Brett's autograph. !!! He said he had a collection of Brett autographs from working for many years in the Green Bay area. I was incredulous and told him he HAD to be kidding. But he wasn't. He insisted that I keep it as a souvenir of our golf game. ANd not to tell where I got it, as he can't get autographs for every Tom, Dick and Harry... (so...shhhhhhh...this is our little secret)
I went back to our exhibition booth, and stunnedly relayed the story to my boss. He rolled his eyes, and asked me what kind of magic I did on a golf course. Ha.
And so, the most amazing gift. We'll have it framed and on the wall. Although I generally consider football to be a waste of precious time, I do like Brett. If I like any football player, it has to be Brett...he is an icon around here. (still!)
Pockets of Joy. Who could have ever guessed that THAT picture would be in my 2008 journal??
My sons and husband are all putting dibs on it... I'll give it as a wedding gift to our oldest someday...since then I won't have to decorate our family room around it for quite so many years...
The Fonz
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We just had dinner on the River Walk, at the Rock Bottom Brewery. After dinner we walked on the River Walk a bit, and came upon Milwaukee's new statue of The Fonz. Henry Winkler is a little guy...the statue was only about 5 foot 7, and he is said to be smaller. Anyhow, Milwaukee had a bit of a tiz about it...the blue collar image or something...but...I kinda like it. Who doesn't want to remember Happy Days?
Gifts!
It's been a week of gifts.
The WELCOME sign was a gift from my brother and sister in law. They stayed for three nights last week end to celebrate our dad's 83rd. When I had visited them in Minneapolis, we had seen, in the window of a closed shop, similar signs. Each letter is a photograph of something that looks like the letter. The close up shows you that the "e" for example, is a stoplight seen from the side. Since I am quirky in my love of letters and words, these are right up my alley. My bro found this one here in my home town at a shop in the village. Imagine that.
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Our foyer and hall are being painted today (WOO HOO) and the bright white ceiling really helps this sign to pop out. I love it. (Our daughter had painted the coffee bar and two walls red the week we moved in, but the ceiling and other walls are still a livable but rather dull taupish gray. In fact, the whole house is pretty much that color -- ceilings too.) I'm especially loving the BRIGHT white ceiling. The foyer/hallway/open stairway to the lower level are being painted "Blonde," a yummy golden creamy blend. And yes, I do love the name.
Back to gifts... there will be a posting on my golf course gift received on Thursday. That deserves a blog of it's own.
But this morning my Saturday Morning ladies surprised me with a thank you gift. Four of us have been together a decade, studying the Word together at my home at 7:30 am on Saturday mornings. There are currently 6 of us, and we have been as big as a dozen. They are my soul sisters.
A couple months ago I made pancakes for Jake, our 12 year old, while the ladies were lingering after study. I had a really pathetic fry pan, and since two of the ladies work at a local kitchen wares shop, today they remedied my pan situation. Way overboard. I am now the owner of a 10 piece Rachael Ray cookware collection in Cobalt Blue. And matching spatulas. And matching whisks. I was inspired to take their photo in the dish drainer...won't they just add some pizazz to our kitchen? They're really too pretty to use, don't you think?
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I've been waffling on kitchen colors...we have dated country blue counters that are going to be around awhile yet...so...I need to work with those. The laundry room, attached to the kitchen, will also be Blonde, and the living room will be a darker brown color ...the foyer is Sherwin Williams "Blonde" and Benjamin Moore "Spanish Red." The family room and kitchen have not yet been decided... ANYHOW, blue is definitely the kitchen accent color...and will also be in family room since we have a blue leather sofa. All seem to work into a French Country sort of palatte.
So...I'm feeling QUITE spoiled. New pans, decor and paint all in one week. The two young painter men just left - the blonde is only on the edges thus far, but the ceiling is all sparkling white. It is SUCH an improvement...so much brighter. Our foyer is huge - the biggest room in the house, but also the darkest since it has no windows other than the side lights by the front door. But the foyer sets the tone for the whole house...I'm hoping the warm Blonde walls and the rich red coffee bar will shout out WELCOME. And, if they don't, there's always that sign...
15 months after moving in, we're finally settling in. And I'm overflowing with home happiness! If you want to read more about our parkway home, Diane once blogged about it here.
Happy Week end! I think I'm high on paint fumes...
(By the way, we've never hired painters before. It's quite decadent. Our schedules, my perfectionism and the two story walls of the open stairway seemed like enough reason to try hiring...and really...I'm loving it...)
The WELCOME sign was a gift from my brother and sister in law. They stayed for three nights last week end to celebrate our dad's 83rd. When I had visited them in Minneapolis, we had seen, in the window of a closed shop, similar signs. Each letter is a photograph of something that looks like the letter. The close up shows you that the "e" for example, is a stoplight seen from the side. Since I am quirky in my love of letters and words, these are right up my alley. My bro found this one here in my home town at a shop in the village. Imagine that.
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Our foyer and hall are being painted today (WOO HOO) and the bright white ceiling really helps this sign to pop out. I love it. (Our daughter had painted the coffee bar and two walls red the week we moved in, but the ceiling and other walls are still a livable but rather dull taupish gray. In fact, the whole house is pretty much that color -- ceilings too.) I'm especially loving the BRIGHT white ceiling. The foyer/hallway/open stairway to the lower level are being painted "Blonde," a yummy golden creamy blend. And yes, I do love the name.
Back to gifts... there will be a posting on my golf course gift received on Thursday. That deserves a blog of it's own.
But this morning my Saturday Morning ladies surprised me with a thank you gift. Four of us have been together a decade, studying the Word together at my home at 7:30 am on Saturday mornings. There are currently 6 of us, and we have been as big as a dozen. They are my soul sisters.
A couple months ago I made pancakes for Jake, our 12 year old, while the ladies were lingering after study. I had a really pathetic fry pan, and since two of the ladies work at a local kitchen wares shop, today they remedied my pan situation. Way overboard. I am now the owner of a 10 piece Rachael Ray cookware collection in Cobalt Blue. And matching spatulas. And matching whisks. I was inspired to take their photo in the dish drainer...won't they just add some pizazz to our kitchen? They're really too pretty to use, don't you think?
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I've been waffling on kitchen colors...we have dated country blue counters that are going to be around awhile yet...so...I need to work with those. The laundry room, attached to the kitchen, will also be Blonde, and the living room will be a darker brown color ...the foyer is Sherwin Williams "Blonde" and Benjamin Moore "Spanish Red." The family room and kitchen have not yet been decided... ANYHOW, blue is definitely the kitchen accent color...and will also be in family room since we have a blue leather sofa. All seem to work into a French Country sort of palatte.
So...I'm feeling QUITE spoiled. New pans, decor and paint all in one week. The two young painter men just left - the blonde is only on the edges thus far, but the ceiling is all sparkling white. It is SUCH an improvement...so much brighter. Our foyer is huge - the biggest room in the house, but also the darkest since it has no windows other than the side lights by the front door. But the foyer sets the tone for the whole house...I'm hoping the warm Blonde walls and the rich red coffee bar will shout out WELCOME. And, if they don't, there's always that sign...
15 months after moving in, we're finally settling in. And I'm overflowing with home happiness! If you want to read more about our parkway home, Diane once blogged about it here.
Happy Week end! I think I'm high on paint fumes...
(By the way, we've never hired painters before. It's quite decadent. Our schedules, my perfectionism and the two story walls of the open stairway seemed like enough reason to try hiring...and really...I'm loving it...)
9.19.2008
1 Chronicles 4:9 &10
Jabez was more honorable than his brothers, and his mother named him Jabez saying, "Because I bore him with pain." Now Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, "Oh that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my border, and that Your hand might be with me, and that You would keep me from harm that it may not pain me!" And God granted him what he requested.
I love these verses. They are written in the front of my journal, and highlighted in my Bible. This morning I'm reading The Prayer of Jabez for Women by Darlene Wilkerson. This line encouraged me: "I began to use the words of Jabez to express the deepest longings of my own heart. I pleaded with God for a better and bigger view of my life, one that would reveal what He had in mind for me." LONGINGS. There's that word again. 2008 is my year of thinking about the LONGINGS of my heart and what they mean.
On the retreat I wove the theme of LONGINGS into our look at Scripture. Instead of squashing our longings, we want to learn to give them to God to sort and purge. And the ones that remain...I have to believe that they are allowed by Him. Allowed to motivate us. Allowed to cause us to want more. To crave abundant life.
There are a few very tender longings very very close to the surface right now in my life. What does God have in mind? Over them all, I want to be blessed indeed. Life abundant is promised. (John 10:10) Yet the key to understanding, as always, is in the context. 1 Chronicles 4:9 tells us that Jabez was "more honorable." Hmmmmmm. And in John 10:9 Jesus tells us, "I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture." That's the pretext to His promise of life abundant.
I wanna find pasture. The peace that passeth understanding. (Phil 4:7) Abundant life. Whew.
I love these verses. They are written in the front of my journal, and highlighted in my Bible. This morning I'm reading The Prayer of Jabez for Women by Darlene Wilkerson. This line encouraged me: "I began to use the words of Jabez to express the deepest longings of my own heart. I pleaded with God for a better and bigger view of my life, one that would reveal what He had in mind for me." LONGINGS. There's that word again. 2008 is my year of thinking about the LONGINGS of my heart and what they mean.
On the retreat I wove the theme of LONGINGS into our look at Scripture. Instead of squashing our longings, we want to learn to give them to God to sort and purge. And the ones that remain...I have to believe that they are allowed by Him. Allowed to motivate us. Allowed to cause us to want more. To crave abundant life.
There are a few very tender longings very very close to the surface right now in my life. What does God have in mind? Over them all, I want to be blessed indeed. Life abundant is promised. (John 10:10) Yet the key to understanding, as always, is in the context. 1 Chronicles 4:9 tells us that Jabez was "more honorable." Hmmmmmm. And in John 10:9 Jesus tells us, "I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture." That's the pretext to His promise of life abundant.
I wanna find pasture. The peace that passeth understanding. (Phil 4:7) Abundant life. Whew.
Bless Me Indeed
What a whirlwind. It's been a blessed week for sure, but gosh, I'm glad it's the 19th and not the 12th. I'll have to split the week into several blogs, but wanted to check in now and provide a brief overview.
Friday to Sunday, Sept 12-14, 2008: led my first women's retreat. The setting was Camp Timber Lee in East Troy, Wisconsin, a fabulous 700 acre celebration of the beauty of God's creation. Unless it rains. Which it did. Continually. It was still beautiful, but the wet did indeed damper our enjoyment of the outdoors. Still, the retreat was well received, and from the emails I've received, women were blessed. I'll entitle that blog RETREAT.
But even before that I was crazy happy because...drumroll please...the basement AND our bedroom are clean and organized. Yes, 15 swift months after moving here, the last box is unpacked and everything (I meant that - everything) is on a shelf in a sembalnce of order. I have not, ever, in three homes, had this feeling. And I don't think I ever realized how the disorder weighed on me, because this euphoric feeling of peace is quite amazing.
Our bedroom is truly in incredible order. As previously reported the sewing is outta there, but the entertainment center and small bookcase have been taken over by an eclectic stash of favorite books, papers and pens. It is a little piece of heaven. I'm finally settled on what is staying there, what is going to be stored in the small oak desk in the foyer, and what will remain in storage downstairs. This might be a yawner of a paragraph for you, but this is ecstatic to me. (I know...I'm weird) (did you ever notice how wired and wierd are so close in spelling? I'm wired weird...)
The basement still has detail work and sorting to do, but the main plan is in place, and I know where everything is. And it all makes sense. Everything. You gotta love that word.
Somehow, over the month of September, I was just overtaken with energy and the desire for HOME. I went to my job a bit less than usual, and I attacked our home with a vigor. And loved EVERY minute of it. The flower beds look great -- all is pruned with mums and pumpkins in place -- the basement is sorted with NOTHING on the floor (just in case) and our bedroom is a peaceful retreat. I even watched part of BBC's version of Sense and Sensibility recently, able to relax in our room with my feet up and a feeling of accomplished happiness. I have planned a number of scarves, and am well on my way to crocheting one whose pattern is entitled "Bohemian Scarf." It's funky. But I digress...the point is...creativity can be released when our home is in order. It's how I'm made. Order is required. [I'll try not to preach, but I believe since God is a God of order we all thrive in it...]
And, before the retreat, creativity errupted in a new way. I've been writing songs for my guitar and voice based on favorite Scripture passages. It's simply amazing. I wrote another one this morning. We sang a few on retreat, and they caught on...and were enjoyed...and it is SO invigorating for me...I'm amazed... That blog will be SONGWRITING.
By the time I returned my soggy self back home, my oldest brother and his wife were moved into our lower level to stay for three nights to celebrate my father's 83rd birthday. We had a great time, and that blog will detail a highlight: GIB'S REQUEST.
On Wednesday I went out of town for work for two LONG days of schmoozing (golf and dinner...I know, stop whining,...but it really is exhausting work...) and the highlight of the week occured on Thursday morning. I'll entitle that blog THE GIFT.
And here I am on a sunny Friday, bare feet up on a chair, sipping coffee, blogging and reading the Word on our screen porch. Sigh. Bliss.
Right now, this very second, I am blessed to overflowing. All is not perfect, there are some mighty waves and storms in my life still, but for the moment I am choosing to rejoice in the blessings, savor the moments and focus on the best.
Life abundant. Thank you Lord. You have blessed me indeed. (1 Chronicles 4:10)
Friday to Sunday, Sept 12-14, 2008: led my first women's retreat. The setting was Camp Timber Lee in East Troy, Wisconsin, a fabulous 700 acre celebration of the beauty of God's creation. Unless it rains. Which it did. Continually. It was still beautiful, but the wet did indeed damper our enjoyment of the outdoors. Still, the retreat was well received, and from the emails I've received, women were blessed. I'll entitle that blog RETREAT.
But even before that I was crazy happy because...drumroll please...the basement AND our bedroom are clean and organized. Yes, 15 swift months after moving here, the last box is unpacked and everything (I meant that - everything) is on a shelf in a sembalnce of order. I have not, ever, in three homes, had this feeling. And I don't think I ever realized how the disorder weighed on me, because this euphoric feeling of peace is quite amazing.
Our bedroom is truly in incredible order. As previously reported the sewing is outta there, but the entertainment center and small bookcase have been taken over by an eclectic stash of favorite books, papers and pens. It is a little piece of heaven. I'm finally settled on what is staying there, what is going to be stored in the small oak desk in the foyer, and what will remain in storage downstairs. This might be a yawner of a paragraph for you, but this is ecstatic to me. (I know...I'm weird) (did you ever notice how wired and wierd are so close in spelling? I'm wired weird...)
The basement still has detail work and sorting to do, but the main plan is in place, and I know where everything is. And it all makes sense. Everything. You gotta love that word.
Somehow, over the month of September, I was just overtaken with energy and the desire for HOME. I went to my job a bit less than usual, and I attacked our home with a vigor. And loved EVERY minute of it. The flower beds look great -- all is pruned with mums and pumpkins in place -- the basement is sorted with NOTHING on the floor (just in case) and our bedroom is a peaceful retreat. I even watched part of BBC's version of Sense and Sensibility recently, able to relax in our room with my feet up and a feeling of accomplished happiness. I have planned a number of scarves, and am well on my way to crocheting one whose pattern is entitled "Bohemian Scarf." It's funky. But I digress...the point is...creativity can be released when our home is in order. It's how I'm made. Order is required. [I'll try not to preach, but I believe since God is a God of order we all thrive in it...]
And, before the retreat, creativity errupted in a new way. I've been writing songs for my guitar and voice based on favorite Scripture passages. It's simply amazing. I wrote another one this morning. We sang a few on retreat, and they caught on...and were enjoyed...and it is SO invigorating for me...I'm amazed... That blog will be SONGWRITING.
By the time I returned my soggy self back home, my oldest brother and his wife were moved into our lower level to stay for three nights to celebrate my father's 83rd birthday. We had a great time, and that blog will detail a highlight: GIB'S REQUEST.
On Wednesday I went out of town for work for two LONG days of schmoozing (golf and dinner...I know, stop whining,...but it really is exhausting work...) and the highlight of the week occured on Thursday morning. I'll entitle that blog THE GIFT.
And here I am on a sunny Friday, bare feet up on a chair, sipping coffee, blogging and reading the Word on our screen porch. Sigh. Bliss.
Right now, this very second, I am blessed to overflowing. All is not perfect, there are some mighty waves and storms in my life still, but for the moment I am choosing to rejoice in the blessings, savor the moments and focus on the best.
Life abundant. Thank you Lord. You have blessed me indeed. (1 Chronicles 4:10)
9.10.2008
Heaven
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I think that I was so excited about the sign outside this store that I couldn't hold my hand still for the inside shot. That's my story on why that second photo is so blurry...
This little piece of heaven was on the road somewhere between Boulder Colorado and Winter Park Colorado. We stopped for coffee to go, and it's a good thing we were on a tight time schedule because otherwise I might have camped there for a very long time. What an enticing sign...books, coffee and ice cream. And a peek inside just got me salivating. Books from floor to ceiling, and little reading nooks here and there, all aglow with twinkle lights! What a delightful stop.
9.08.2008
Monday Morning
Here I am on the couch again. So so spoiled to have another Monday off work. Every once in a while my flex time arrangement does indeed allow for...flex!
So, I'm here in sweats, nestled deep into the leather sofa, staring out into the parkway and watching the branches sway. To my left is Fresh Brewed Life and my Bible, and to my right is a cup of coffee and that crazy good creamer. My journal and retreat notes are on the ottoman by my feet, and my laptop is here on my lap. This has the makings of a very fine morning.
Here's a quote from FBL to ponder today. It is in the chapter entitled "Surrender to God," a chapter about not trying harder or doing more, but just leaning in to the creator.
There is only One who can tell us this: the Lord himself. And He wants to tell us. He has made us to know our reason for being and to be led by it. But it is a secret He will entrust to us only when we ask, and then in His own way and His own time. He will whisper it to us not in the mad rush and fever of our striving and our fierce determination to be someone, but rather when we are content to rest in Him, to put oursleves into His keeping, into His hands. Most delightfully of all, it is a secret He will tell us slowly and sweetly, when we are willing to spend time with Him: time with Him who is beyond all time.
So, I'm here in sweats, nestled deep into the leather sofa, staring out into the parkway and watching the branches sway. To my left is Fresh Brewed Life and my Bible, and to my right is a cup of coffee and that crazy good creamer. My journal and retreat notes are on the ottoman by my feet, and my laptop is here on my lap. This has the makings of a very fine morning.
Here's a quote from FBL to ponder today. It is in the chapter entitled "Surrender to God," a chapter about not trying harder or doing more, but just leaning in to the creator.
There is only One who can tell us this: the Lord himself. And He wants to tell us. He has made us to know our reason for being and to be led by it. But it is a secret He will entrust to us only when we ask, and then in His own way and His own time. He will whisper it to us not in the mad rush and fever of our striving and our fierce determination to be someone, but rather when we are content to rest in Him, to put oursleves into His keeping, into His hands. Most delightfully of all, it is a secret He will tell us slowly and sweetly, when we are willing to spend time with Him: time with Him who is beyond all time.
9.07.2008
Fresh Brewed Life
So, this coming week end I will fulfill a life goal...
For years I have said, somewhat facetiously, "When I grow up I want to be a retreat speaker." And this coming week end...I'm speaking at my first retreat. My debut. (I won't quit my day job...)
The theme for the week end is Psalm 119:105, "Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
On Friday night our pastor's wife will do a one hour Old Testament survey, and I'll do a 30 minute intro to who am I and what's my story.
Saturday morning she will do a 45 minute New Testament survey, and I'll have three sessions on Saturday: WHY study the Bible, HOW to study the Bible and LET'S study the Bible (where we'll study a passage together)
So as I'm finalizing my list of *why* study the Bible, I think to myself...I can't imagine life without reading the Bible regularly. How do women hold themselves together without that daily dose of Truth and encouragement? It is truly the glue that holds my fragile self together.
Most of the week end will be based on Psalm 119 , and two words which are often repeated there are "revive" (vs. 25, 37, 40,50,88,93,107, 154, 156,159) and "long" and/or "longing."(vs. 20,40,82,123,131, 174,) As I tried to succinctly express this in words, I remembered my favorite book of all time, "Fresh Brewed Life."
In this book which SO speaks to me (and makes me feel more *normal*), Nicole Johnson wrote an entire chapter entitled, "Listen to your Longings." I'll be reading a lot of it on Saturday morning.
Here's my favorite paragraph of the book: Are longings one big cosmic setup for frustration? Perhaps, if we view them as something to be overcome or eradicated. If we spend more time trying to get them "filled up." But if we lean in close, and put our ears to the chest of our soul and listen to our longings - they can teach us to understand God and ourselves in a way that would not happen if we were permitted to have everything we longed for. It's true, what we don't have shapes us more than what we have. We are like Swiss cheese, and the holes in us are actually supposed to be there. The holes are the places God has reserved in us for Himself! The longings identify our real hunger. A hunger that drives us to Him to be satisfied. If...big if...we listen. (p. 45)
Nicole says it so much more succinctly than I ever could. The longings of our hearts are there to bring us to God. And the psalmist agrees. He craves God's Word out of longing. The word "delight" is also plentiful in Psalm 119, as well as "revive." Why read God's Word? To be REVIVED.
I love that thought. I love that word: REVIVE!
If you're interested in the book, see my side bar, and link to the "Fresh Brewed Life" website.
This book spoke to me unlike anything else I have read, second only to the Bible. Truly. I must have read it just at the right time in life, just at the moment of most need. Reading it was like having coffee with a friend - a very close and intimate friend. It's the only book I own two of -- my copy and a lending copy. I love it THAT much!
"I need truth in stong doses like a great cup of coffee in the morning. I need to hear from God and be changed, every day." (p. x of the introduction)
"When we offer Him the whole-bean essence of ourselves and we submit to be finely ground, it will produce character in us." (p. 12)
Yes, the whole book is full of coffee analogy, and there are facts and recipes sprinkled throughout. It's a delicious read in more ways than one.
I'm going to curl up now, with a good cup of Nescafe Decaf and Coffee Mate Black Cherry Streusel creamer*, and reread this gem of a book. It's a book to read with journal in hand. And colored pencils, highlighters and post-it flags. (My copy is VERY colorful)
May the Lord *revive* you soon through His word as well! Ciao!
* This creamer may be the reason that 600 Starbucks stores are closing...it's THAT good!! Our Starbucks has definitely seen less of me since I discovered it! It is a limited release item....I'm stocking up!
For years I have said, somewhat facetiously, "When I grow up I want to be a retreat speaker." And this coming week end...I'm speaking at my first retreat. My debut. (I won't quit my day job...)
The theme for the week end is Psalm 119:105, "Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
On Friday night our pastor's wife will do a one hour Old Testament survey, and I'll do a 30 minute intro to who am I and what's my story.
Saturday morning she will do a 45 minute New Testament survey, and I'll have three sessions on Saturday: WHY study the Bible, HOW to study the Bible and LET'S study the Bible (where we'll study a passage together)
So as I'm finalizing my list of *why* study the Bible, I think to myself...I can't imagine life without reading the Bible regularly. How do women hold themselves together without that daily dose of Truth and encouragement? It is truly the glue that holds my fragile self together.
Most of the week end will be based on Psalm 119 , and two words which are often repeated there are "revive" (vs. 25, 37, 40,50,88,93,107, 154, 156,159) and "long" and/or "longing."(vs. 20,40,82,123,131, 174,) As I tried to succinctly express this in words, I remembered my favorite book of all time, "Fresh Brewed Life."
In this book which SO speaks to me (and makes me feel more *normal*), Nicole Johnson wrote an entire chapter entitled, "Listen to your Longings." I'll be reading a lot of it on Saturday morning.
Here's my favorite paragraph of the book: Are longings one big cosmic setup for frustration? Perhaps, if we view them as something to be overcome or eradicated. If we spend more time trying to get them "filled up." But if we lean in close, and put our ears to the chest of our soul and listen to our longings - they can teach us to understand God and ourselves in a way that would not happen if we were permitted to have everything we longed for. It's true, what we don't have shapes us more than what we have. We are like Swiss cheese, and the holes in us are actually supposed to be there. The holes are the places God has reserved in us for Himself! The longings identify our real hunger. A hunger that drives us to Him to be satisfied. If...big if...we listen. (p. 45)
Nicole says it so much more succinctly than I ever could. The longings of our hearts are there to bring us to God. And the psalmist agrees. He craves God's Word out of longing. The word "delight" is also plentiful in Psalm 119, as well as "revive." Why read God's Word? To be REVIVED.
I love that thought. I love that word: REVIVE!
If you're interested in the book, see my side bar, and link to the "Fresh Brewed Life" website.
This book spoke to me unlike anything else I have read, second only to the Bible. Truly. I must have read it just at the right time in life, just at the moment of most need. Reading it was like having coffee with a friend - a very close and intimate friend. It's the only book I own two of -- my copy and a lending copy. I love it THAT much!
"I need truth in stong doses like a great cup of coffee in the morning. I need to hear from God and be changed, every day." (p. x of the introduction)
"When we offer Him the whole-bean essence of ourselves and we submit to be finely ground, it will produce character in us." (p. 12)
Yes, the whole book is full of coffee analogy, and there are facts and recipes sprinkled throughout. It's a delicious read in more ways than one.
I'm going to curl up now, with a good cup of Nescafe Decaf and Coffee Mate Black Cherry Streusel creamer*, and reread this gem of a book. It's a book to read with journal in hand. And colored pencils, highlighters and post-it flags. (My copy is VERY colorful)
May the Lord *revive* you soon through His word as well! Ciao!
* This creamer may be the reason that 600 Starbucks stores are closing...it's THAT good!! Our Starbucks has definitely seen less of me since I discovered it! It is a limited release item....I'm stocking up!
Queen
You'd probably have to know me to realize the ridiculousness of this, but this scene actually just occurred:
Jake, the 12 year old, is in his 3rd year of electric guitar, and he's pretty darn good. He plays all the time. Anyhow, he is learning some Queen songs, just to please his dear old mom and his older brother Joe. (I *loved* Queen in high school...knew every word and would sing along...Joey, our firstborn, could not believe it when he *discovered* Queen and his mom knew all the words! He was about 15...he's 21 now)
So after dinner, Jake picks up my acoustic guitar and says, "Mom...sing along!" And he starts jamming "Crazy Little Thing called Love." And so I sang, and Jake played. Anna took a photo from the foyer and could hardly breathe she was laughing so hard. "this," she said, "is my family..."
Ha. That was an unusual mother/son moment. But I loved it.
No, no world tour date has been set. I'll keep you posted...
Jake, the 12 year old, is in his 3rd year of electric guitar, and he's pretty darn good. He plays all the time. Anyhow, he is learning some Queen songs, just to please his dear old mom and his older brother Joe. (I *loved* Queen in high school...knew every word and would sing along...Joey, our firstborn, could not believe it when he *discovered* Queen and his mom knew all the words! He was about 15...he's 21 now)
So after dinner, Jake picks up my acoustic guitar and says, "Mom...sing along!" And he starts jamming "Crazy Little Thing called Love." And so I sang, and Jake played. Anna took a photo from the foyer and could hardly breathe she was laughing so hard. "this," she said, "is my family..."
Ha. That was an unusual mother/son moment. But I loved it.
No, no world tour date has been set. I'll keep you posted...
9.03.2008
Mental Health Morning
I took the morning off. I am desperately in need of a mental health break, and the children are delightfully OUT OF THE HOUSE at school.
Does that sound harsh? I do love my kids, but this return of peace and quiet is so so delicious.
I just need to sit and sigh, journal and putter. I feel better already!
My father spent two sets of three days, a week apart, in the hospital. End stage renal failure. He decided to go ahead with kidney dialysis, and is doing much better. He'll spend most of his Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays getting ready for, transporting to, and having dialysis (3.5 hours each time), but in exchange for that he will feel much better and live to enjoy the other 4 days each week. He'll be 83 two weeks from today. I thought we were going to lose him this last time...he was so so sick...but he is one tough old guy! A retired pastor, he spends his days at a reading machine (diabetes has greatly diminished his eyesight) keeping up with the sports news and reading God's Word. He is such a student, even 60 years after graduating from seminary. God bless him!
Four teenagers have really worn me out -- much for which to be thankful, but emotionally wearing all the same. They are supposed to be spreading their wings -- I keep reminding myself of that -- I just need to keep moving out of the way so I don't get smacked by the feathers. I tried recently to explain to our 15 year old daughter that even though her remarks may not seem like much to her, when you add them to three other kid's remarks, it is too much for a mother's heart. She looked at me like I've finally lost it and rolled her eyes. So much for a tender moment...
Work has been so full. I do work flexible hours, but with a big promotion and raise, it's hard to keep balanced... I want them to get their money's worth, and I want to stay on top of things...and ....well...
And so, my mental health morning. As the old song goes, time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping...into the future... It has been delicious though. I've purposefully not made a list, but have come upon small projects and conquered them, written a few emails, updated my journal, studied Isaiah 24 (read that to know why Global Climate Change is occuring...it's all in His plans), and puttered. I LOVE puttering. At home. Alone.
And to think I'm an extrovert...hmmmmmm...
Does that sound harsh? I do love my kids, but this return of peace and quiet is so so delicious.
I just need to sit and sigh, journal and putter. I feel better already!
My father spent two sets of three days, a week apart, in the hospital. End stage renal failure. He decided to go ahead with kidney dialysis, and is doing much better. He'll spend most of his Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays getting ready for, transporting to, and having dialysis (3.5 hours each time), but in exchange for that he will feel much better and live to enjoy the other 4 days each week. He'll be 83 two weeks from today. I thought we were going to lose him this last time...he was so so sick...but he is one tough old guy! A retired pastor, he spends his days at a reading machine (diabetes has greatly diminished his eyesight) keeping up with the sports news and reading God's Word. He is such a student, even 60 years after graduating from seminary. God bless him!
Four teenagers have really worn me out -- much for which to be thankful, but emotionally wearing all the same. They are supposed to be spreading their wings -- I keep reminding myself of that -- I just need to keep moving out of the way so I don't get smacked by the feathers. I tried recently to explain to our 15 year old daughter that even though her remarks may not seem like much to her, when you add them to three other kid's remarks, it is too much for a mother's heart. She looked at me like I've finally lost it and rolled her eyes. So much for a tender moment...
Work has been so full. I do work flexible hours, but with a big promotion and raise, it's hard to keep balanced... I want them to get their money's worth, and I want to stay on top of things...and ....well...
And so, my mental health morning. As the old song goes, time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping...into the future... It has been delicious though. I've purposefully not made a list, but have come upon small projects and conquered them, written a few emails, updated my journal, studied Isaiah 24 (read that to know why Global Climate Change is occuring...it's all in His plans), and puttered. I LOVE puttering. At home. Alone.
And to think I'm an extrovert...hmmmmmm...
9.02.2008
Somebody's Quilting
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Well, the sewing machine has moved again. Recently I came into the family room to discover that our 21 year old had moved the couch forward - closer to the tv- for better gaming. And of course he didn't move it back when he finally went to bed in the early morning.
So...I got to thinking...hmmmm...there's three feet of open space there... my sewing machine and its custom table are now behind the couch. With the screen porch behind (the french doors are usually open) and the tv directly in front of me, I just might...sew! You just never know. In the meantime the sewing machine is swung into its table, and a lovely desktop is here for my laptop. Newfound space. You just gotta love it. I'm blogging and watching the Republican Convention news...I so rarely sit near a TV that this is quite a treat!
Our 19 year old daughter was laid off for the last two weeks of summer, so she started cutting 6 inch squares out of old t-shirts, prom dresses, skirts, and added a lot of squares from her mom's fabric stashes. Within a week she had a twin sized quilt for her dorm bed. She put batting between the pieced top and a large expanse of yellow fleece, and tied it in the corners of each squares...very old fashioned and comfy. She put together a very unconventional mixture of fabric types, polyester batting and polar fleece, but it is eclectic, full of memories and VERY warm.
There's something to be said for *not* planning the colors, the pattern and the placement. For one thing, her quilt is done, and my *planned ones* are ...just well thought plans!
Bird Plantings
The birds have been gardening. I pulled a million starts out of the garden (before I got smart and started baking my bird seed - an hour at 300 degrees and the spilled seed won't sprout!) but I left a couple sunflowers to see how they'd grow. And grow they did! This lovely plant, in the front entry garden, has multiple blooms and is supported by the birdfeeder. The birdfeeder belonged to my mom.
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